Becoming

It is extremely easy, when you are young, to allow all the wrong things to define who you are. I suspect the same is true even for older people, but luckily I’m not quite old enough to confirm that. Then again, I’m 25. That’s old relative to some, isn’t it?

By now I “should” know certain things. Things like: what I want to be now that I’m grown up (because OMG I am grown up), where I stand on touchy issues (gay marriage, the migrant crisis, to be or not to be a Belieber), how I like to have my coffee (any self-respecting adult knows this, k), who I’m voting for in 2016 (yikes), and even who I want to spend the rest of my life with (double yikes).

I don’t have “answers” for more than half of those things. And I won’t waste time in making a rather obvious point here: Even if I had the answers, they wouldn’t define me. My opinions and desires count for a lot, but they don’t constitute my entire being. They are not (and will never be) static. I am not static.

What sucks is that society seeks — almost demands— certainty. Certainty makes others feel comfortable. It allows them to place you in the world. It’s an I know what you do therefore I know who you are way of thinking; grossly oversimplified of course, but you get what I mean.

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Checking In

Hello – it’s been a while! I didn’t want to jump right back into beauty reviews after the little unintended hiatus I took, so I thought I would do a little catching up post first.

Life (outside of beauty blogging) has been quite chill and all sorts of happy of late. Allow me to remind anyone who missed the news that I officially found myself free of the clutches of law school in March, but I began moving my life’s direction away from it in October of last year. I still often think of life in terms of “when I was suffering in law school” and “life after the inferno law school” because it was that traumatising. But! I did slowly start to feel more like myself again once I allowed myself to really let go.

I had forgotten, while in law school, how good life can be. I started reading again — and I mean really reading, because six hours a day dedicated to reading cases is nothing compared to a solid hour or two with some real literature. I have time to write now, and along with reading that nourishes my soul. I can also finally focus on my health by making my yoga practice a priority for the sake of both my physical and spiritual wellbeing. And thanks to all of those things, I stopped being so angry all the time.

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What I’ve Been Up To

…because believe it or not, I have not fallen off the face of the earth!

I do think that what I’ve been going through over the past few weeks qualifies as “blogger burnout.” It all just got very tiring and not fun at all. So I took a break and worried at first that I would suffer for it. Then I decided to just let go of the damn anxiety because I practically live my entire life with a stick up my ass. Relaxing and going with the flow do not come naturally to me – even my down time is planned out if I have any say in it (and I make sure I do).

So it’s been a good couple of weeks of no-pressure living in the “beauty blogger” aspect of my life. I’ve enjoyed it immensely but you will be glad to know that just the other day I visited Rustan’s and got that feeling for the first time in a long time — the uncontrollable, completely illogical, and all-too-familiar feeling that I MUST. HAVE. ALL. THE. MAKEUP. It’s not even a thought, guys. It is a feeling.

Beauty-related posts will resume shortly, but for now let me fill you in on all the other incredibly interesting (not really) stuff that goes on in my life. I’ve been:

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Keeping my yoga practice alive

Man, I love yoga. It started with Bikram some three years ago, but now I’m getting into the other variations/types and I’m loving how much there is to learn about the body and explore in the mind.

A good friend also started practicing at the same studio I go to recently and although I usually like my alone time at yoga, I do like having her around. Sharing good energy is always awesome.

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